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Whatup: Sad. Lonely. Down. Missing u...a letter I made for my baby last 01.27.07, was suppossed to give it to him pero I just decided to post it here. Just want the world to know how much his love means to me... Thanks so much baby for everything. Your love keeps me going...
~*~*~*
Dearest Baby,
ang sarap mong panuorin matulog...para ka talagang baby, amoy baby pa!
lam mo baby, wala talagang ibubuga sa'yo si saudi boy (binyag ni dhen! naks!). cute ka na, sooooobrang bait na boyfriend/anak/tropa/kapatid pa. eh sya? mukha syang gremlin, saksakan pa ng hambog. hahaha. higit sa lahat, inggit na inggit sa'yo un kasi yung pinaka gusto nya nasa'yo, at ako un. (kapal ko noh?)
baby, soooobrang saya ko sa'yo. hindi ka tulad ng iba jan na puro sarili lang yung iniisip. u always put my happiness first above anything else. lagi mo kong inaalagaan, inaasikaso at iniintindi n i can't help but feel so loved and so well taken care of. napaka swerte ko talaga sa'yo lagi kong sinsabi sa'yo yan n dats exactly how i feel. hindi na ko makakahanap pa ng tulad mo. kaya nga kahit na minsan badtrip ako, pag naiisip kta mas gumagaan ung pakiramdam ko cause i know that there's someone na lagi akong kakampihan n hu'd always be there for me no matter what n i just tell myself that things can't be that bad kasi nanjan ka naman. lagi ko nga iniicp na napaka bait talaga ni Lord kasi He gave us the chance to meet n be together. ^_^
kaya nga i value every single minute that we spend together n if only i could capture every detail para i could play it in my mind over n over again, gagawin ko cause that's how much i cherish my time with u. baby, mahal na mahal na mahal kita kaya nga sobra sobra na lang ang lungkot ko dahil malapit na kong umalis. It’s so hard to fight a battle knowing that the person that you’re fighting that battle for is miles away from u. kung malungkot ka, hnd kta mayayakap. Kung may sakit ka, hnd kita mapupuntahan at maalagaan… kaya lagi mong iingatan sarili mo ha baby? kung choice ko lang sya, ayoko pa talaga umalis, ayaw pa kitang iwan pero kailangan eh. I don’t think that I’ll ever be ready but the best I can do is try to be ok. Thank you kasi broad minded ka n naiintindihan mo yung situation. alam kong ayaw mo kong umalis at ayaw mo kong nakikitang umiiyak pero hindi ko mapigilan, kung iicipin mo kasi less than 3 months na lang aalis na ko, it's really so heart breaking n sad. kaya nga pag may ginagawa tayo together, at the back of my mind lagi kong iniicip kung kelan ntin uli mggawa un... m22log magkasama, maguusap sa fone ng madaling araw, maglalakad sa daan habang umuulan, kakain sa labas, manunuod ng movie, magsisimbang magkasama... kelan kaya natin uli magagawa ung mga yan? Would it be next year? The year after? Ang hirap nya talaga kasi napaka uncertain ng future…but all I know is titiisin ko lahat ng hirap, lahat ng lungkot kasi para satin naman lahat ng ggwin ko.
pag nandun na ko palakasin natin loob ng isa't isa ha n wag tayong magbabago. i'd bear the loneliness kasi ganun kta kamahal. ako pa dati ung nagsasabi sa'yo na wag kang malungkot pag umalis na ko but here i am, nandito pa nga ko pero iyak na ko ng iyak.
basta baby, mahal na mahal kita, lagi mo yang tatandaan n always be strong, just take my hand n never let go dahil darating din ang araw na hindi na natin kelangan pang malungkot at hindi na natin kelangan pang maghiwalay. Always pray n hear mass every Sundays. lagi mong pagdadasal na palakasin ni Lord ang loob natin. iLoveuSoooo000oomuch dani ko… iLoveu heart n soul n wd all of me…
With love always,
Coryganda
7:13:00 PM
Neurotic wise ass out to flood the world with opinionated and not-so-opiniated wit and charm. Nationalistic to the core. Wannabe writer extraordinaire. Daydreamer and royal blooded smart aleck. This is me. This is sugar and spice personified.
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