Rock Hard
Hearing: stillness of the night, drama!
Where@: dining pa din ng apt
Whatup: praning na!
Praning na talaga! It just dawned on me na less than a month to go na lang at magtatake na ng local board exams ang mga kabatch ko sa Pinas. Heto pa't nagcomment sa friendster ko ang kabarakada kong si Tine (not that hindi ako natuwa), and according to her nga she's gonna enroll sa Kaplan, which is like the equivalent of Gapuz satin. Ika nga ng Kaplan, "Prepare with Kaplan, Pass the first time."
Aatakihin na ata ako sa puso. In less than a month RN na mga kabatch ko while ako professional bum pa din ang lamang ko lang nasa states na ko. Sosyal na bum. But should I be confident just because of that? Hell no. Putris, eh more than a month na sila ngrereview while ako ni buklat ng libro hindi ko pa nagagawa. How promising naman talaga! Naguiguilty naman talaga ako,I swear, but you know katamaran gets the better of me and I do read books during my free time (which is most of the time) it's just that it doesn't have anything to do with Nursing or the sort. Buti pa si Anabelle Rama sa Sharon nabigyan ko ng pansin eh yung mga libro ko binabahayan na ng gagamba.
And when do I intend to take the NCLEX? So August lang naman. It's as if napaka layo pa when in fact napakaka short na lang ng time para mgreview ako lalo na't I have to review all by myself. Para bang napaka sure ko eh noh? Actually, kabang kaba na nga ko at sumasakit puso ko just thinking of it. It's sooooo friggin near. Ugggh, NCLEX is killing me softly.
But the thing is, I can't live like this forever. Surely, I can't depend on my kuya and my ate to feed me, provide me shelter and buy me a thing or two when we go out. Eventually, I'd have to crawl out of the comforts of my niche and do something productive other than cleaning the house or cooking them dinner. Sooner or later, dreadfully, I'd have to study and bury my nose in my books and subsequently earn a living for myself and pitch in a bit for groceries, rent and stuff. I guess it's better than sleeping in the afternoon due to chronic boredom. But the truth is, ayaw ko pa talaga but deep inside me and right from the start I perfectly knew that the time will come when I hafta go through the pagsusunog ng kilay part just like every other nursing student reviewing for the board exams.
I've stalled enough, procrastinated enough.
It's time.
11:19:00 PM
Neurotic wise ass out to flood the world with opinionated and not-so-opiniated wit and charm. Nationalistic to the core. Wannabe writer extraordinaire. Daydreamer and royal blooded smart aleck. This is me. This is sugar and spice personified.
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