Near Death XP
I had the worst kind of headache last night. It was the meanest, most bad-ass physical pain
I've experienced in my entire life. I cried again for a number of hours last night while I was talking to Dani over at ym (long story - am in no mood to divulge). I mean I didn't bawl or anything, I just sniffed a lot and blew my nose now and then plus the added stress
must've caused some tension too overwhelming for me to take. Yes I know I should know better and I know I should've taken some pain meds but I was in no mood to eat either (NSAIDS
are to be taken with food) and besides it was 3am
by then ayoko din bangungutin (nightmares translated medically as Acute Pancreatitis
I lay there in my bed for an hour or so thinking, pondering, musing
(which all made my head hurt even more). I put all my pillows below my head (feeling ko lang may IICP
ako haha) and although I wasn't vomiting nor was I losing consciousness, I really thought that hindi na ko magigising. Cerebral aneurysm
ang drama nito! lol. I swear. I'm not over exaggerating. I really thought that I wouldn't be able to see the light of day anymore. I thought of how people would react to my death and how sad people who are close to me will be. I thought of my future and of Dani and of my friends and family. I couldn't think straight anymore. The pain was killing me even as I thought of demise
. But I couldn't die now, I thought, I still had so many things I wanted to do with my life and besides, I had no suicidal tendencies and I can't die because of some stupid headache brought about by some heartache.
Then everything went blank.
By the time I opened my eyes, sunshine was already pouring through the window in the bedroom and the headache was gone. Thank God I'm alive
, I said to myself, I'm too young to die. I got up from bed, made coffee and everything was back to normal - another study day for me. (not until I saw Willie making drama about Joey De Leon on TFC, oh but that's another story...)
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